I just feel like I need some closure... an ending to our story. In all reality our friendship has been over for a while. I'll still talk when you need it, answer the phone whenever you call, I'd be there if you needed me... but I have a feeling we won't talk, you won't call, and you won't need me... not any more. I've gone through angry, gone through sad, and now I'm letting go, giving up. It'll never go back to the way we were... we've both changed too much. I just needed to say it out loud, put it in writing, get it over with..... "goodbye"

I have always said I want nothing more than to be a mom, to be a part of a family. That stability, dependance, that life... its what I feel I was made for. But traveling around the world, seeing the people who have given up their lives to aid other, to make the world a better place... its tempting. I can see myself teaching math or english in a foreign country, coaching soccer or basketball to a group of kids who have nothing in the world, I just feel like that could be amazing...