You said I'm scared to admit it, scared to admit to actually liking someone, actually wanting something more than friendship... but wouldn't you be?

I've grown up as the friend; the one they come to talk to about other girls, the one their girlfriends are never jealous of, the one they can take to dinner and a movie with no outside pressures. And 9 times out of 10, thats just fine by me.

But then, of course I'm scared. I've never really crossed that friendship line, (well once, but not much good came of that), and no ones ever crossed that line for me. Heck, I've never had a real relationship- And so I'm scared to admit to anything more and mostly scared to admit what I want and be rejected.

Anywho, I'm telling you all of this because I don't actually think that I like him. But I like the idea, and for now I like talking to him and whatever it means.

You've got me a little off-balance, unsure of whats going on, and whats going to happen next. I certainly didn't expect this, not that I have ANY idea of what this is. What I do know is that I look forward to talking to you, and I hope whatever this is... it continues.