she keeps saying things like "you coming back safe and in one piece will be the best xmas present ever" and I know she means well and I know shes just worried about me... but doesn't she realize I'm scared too? I know that where I'm headed isn't the safest place in the world... I probably know worst stats then she does, and doesn't she know I want to come back, I don't have a death wish, or an injury wish, or any other bad wish... but this is something I want to do, a part of the world I want to see, and although she doesn't mean to, shes kind of ruining it, and kind of making me more nervous... I just want her to tell me to have fun, be safe, and keep in touch... I want her to tell me its all going to be okay... I need to hear that its all going to be ok