I realize this is a bit late, but who cares...

I DID IT.

(Big sigh of relief)

I AM EMPLOYABLE

:-)

I wish I was one of those people who believed in fate... destiny. If I could go through life knowing that in the end everything would work out the way it was supposed to, then I wouldn't have to worry so much, maybe I wouldn't have to try so hard. The idea that you cannot screw up, that your decisions are already made, and that in the end it all works out... well its appealing. But, to me, it just doesn't quite make sense. I work in logic, every action has an equal and opposite reaction, meaning everything you do or decide has a consequence. If our decisions and doings have consequences then it can't already be decided. I wish I believed though... because I feel lost, and like I can't seem to get it right... any of it.