Sometimes I think it might be easier not to talk to him, to cut off contact, to give myself a little bit of breathing room... maybe then I could keep him from my thoughts

If I didn't talk to him everyday, if he wasn't the person I most wanted to call when something happened, if he didn't make me laugh... maybe it'd be easier

If I deleted every old email, text message, voicemail, picture, every memory... then maybe he wouldn't have such a strong hold on me, maybe I could let go

If I stopped listening to country music, watching romantic movies, and talking to anyone who was remotely in love.... then maybe I could pretend everything was okay

If I could do all of those things, I know I could move on...but I never could do them, none of them. So I guess this is going to be hard... going to hurt.