I like to stay busy, because when I'm busy, when I don't have time to stop, then I don't have time to think. I can't over analyze, over plan, or over react. I just do. And life makes sense. That's how I work best, because when I have time; when I question, analyze and think, then I tend to dwell, worry, and second guess myself.

But right now, even with how busy I've made my schedule, I can't help but think and question. I know I need to make decisions and changes. I just don't know how to do that. The few things I'm sure I want, I don't know how to get. And the things I know I can achieve, I don't know if I want. I need to figure this all out, create a plan, and make some changes, but more than anything I need to stop thinking about me, about this, it's all very annoying.

This isn't coming out right. None of this. I feel like I'm thinking and saying the same things over and over, and yet, I'm getting no where, learning and deciding nothing.