It's day two and I'm already done. No, done's not the right word. I want to be done. I want to not study, to not waste mutiple hours a day, to not care... but I'm not done. I'm not because I can't be. Thats not an option. This is something I have to do, something I will do. But maybe if I didn't try, if I didn't put in any time or any effort, then maybe if I get another 5, I won't feel like quite as big of a failure.