Mixed feelings from the past days:

1.Goodbye, the word just shouldn't have ever been invented...but she didn't cry until her saw the car drive away.

2.He made her feel better....just seeing his face and sitting next to him. She tried to make him proud, even though she was simply sitting on a bench and yelling, she wanted him to look at her and smile. He didn't have to talk, he did but he didn't have to, the look in his eyes said enough....he cared and she just wanted to sit on that wood bench forever.

3. She opened the letter and she read the words written on the card...an appology for the pain, for the circumstances, and a goodbye she wasn't ready to read. As her eyes filled up with tears and the tears fell onto the paper and the ink began to run on the card she reread the letter time and time again.

4. She had a great time, even as they sat in the dark and just talked. 4 great friends she hadn't seen in a while...it was great to be with them again, even with the tears, silence, laughs and smiles. She wanted to cry with them, to let it all go....but in the car ride home she smiled b/c she knew what great friends she had been given, and what a precious gift it was.

too many thoughts...but shes taking the time to think


life goes on