It meant alot to me that you asked. I didn't even know you looked at this thing. Its just hard for me to talk about it. Too much to say and alot I can't put in words. With so much going on in everyone's life I don't want to take up your time, be like "hey focus on me, only I matter" because its not true, and you have your life to deal with too. But it does matter that you asked, it matters that you care, so thanks.