She sat on the edge of my bed, lecturing me about how I was being pissy. I said I was just being realistic and she said I was just being difficult. She said I always got like this when I didn't want to do something, she's right, but who doesn't get like this when they are forced to do something they don't want to do?

I guess its just the fear of rejection, the fear that they'll laugh in my face, but in anycase, its fear. So I'm sorry for being 'pissy' sorry for being "difficult' sorry for being afraid...