I didn't mean for you to hear that, but I forgot how closely you pay attention. You listen to every word and every silence; you always have, but I forgot. I didn't mean to say I don't want to go. I do want to go, or rather I need to. This is the company that I want to work for, and this is the company that I think can best help me succeed. So, I do want to go. I want to try out this life. I want to see what I can do, and who I will become- I want to go. . . but I don't want to leave, and thats what I should have said.